I suppose I'm pretty much made of glass when it comes to expressing my emotions. Sometimes I envy those who are going through a rough time and you can't even tell. Then again, I'm also somewhat proud of the fact that I don't try to hide what I'm feeling. I can be honest about how I feel, and I'm ok with openly showing that I am weak, as much as it frustrates me. Hopefully I'm not overly dramatic...well, usually!
A couple of days ago I received some unpleasant news. What upsets me most is that I had the power to change the outcome and now I feel very much like a failure. It was a stressful week but it was pretty much my own fault. I hate when I do that and when I am slow to learn such a simple lesson. I suppose I did what I could, but maybe I could've done more too and that realization has been eating away at me the entire week. Sure, maybe I'm being too hard on myself but then I also tend to think I haven't been hard enough.
It is times like these when I am grateful for the caring people I have all around me. My family, particularly my sisters who are my best friends (that continuously support me, offer their wisdom, make time to check up on me and make me feel loved), and a handful of close friends that I can turn to anytime. Each day I am more and more amazed by my fiance's keen sixth sense of knowing when I am stressed out or upset about something. He doesn't hesitate to put his arm around me and ask if I'm ok, patiently listens while I explain what's bugging me, and then reminds me that my mistakes do not interfere with my worth and value as an individual. I feel grateful for knowing I am a daughter of a loving and perfect God who's always there for me. The Gospel of Jesus Christ is what holds me together. When the pressures of mortality beat up on me and when an unforgiving world turns its back, I have many many wonderful people around me who will remind me that "Everything will be okay. It will work out."
I am also grateful for the little elf that left one of my favorite chocolate bars on my keyboard at work today (Dove dark). Thank you thank you! :)
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I'm sorry. You've got a lot of great, supportive people, though. That's awesome!
ReplyDeleteI'm one who doesn't show much emotion. Sometimes it's frustrating to be not only be having a rough day, but have nobody seem to care (because they don't know, duh. It took me so many years to figure that out!) I've learned to be a little more open and tell the truth when someone asks how my day is going.
Your very welcome! : )
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